Hello There, Thinker.
There are so many avenues in you. I do so much without your permission. From creative to correlative, I stretch you more than Elastigirl’s arms.
One of my fears is that you will forget everything. I’ve seen it happen to my loved ones and it was detrimental to the spirit of their existence. They forgot who I was. Their temperament changed at the drop of a dime. Sometimes they would stare off in the distance and I longed for them to return. So, I stretch you — daily. I weave the needles of my to-do lists in and out of you like a skilled seamstress. I hope it works in our favor.
Remember when you couldn’t grasp the concept of negative numbers, but you easily understood neurological transmitters? I was so frustrated with you and I thought you were defective. I didn’t know that I was gifted. I simply felt weird and out of place.
Remember when I prayed that God would make you normal so I would stop being teased? It took awhile, but I learned to embrace the way you work. You compute situations in futuristic tense yet turn off before you overload. How exceptional is that?
Remember the first time I envisioned choreography while my eyes were open? Wow, did it take my breath away. It felt like I was teleported into a creative universe. You tried to process so many pictures at once, so much movement in a moment. I pray we never forget it. I pray we never forget anything.
Store my memories well.
Hide them safely.
Let them roam free if the dark times are coming.
I don’t speak the worst over myself, but neither did my loved ones. It just happened. So, when no one is watching or while everyone sleeps, tiptoe to the file cabinets and pull out whatever tickles your fancy. You hold great things in the folds of my humanity and I have experienced incredible moments.
Here’s to you remembering them all. Here’s to recalling names, places, and things. Here’s to laughing at old jokes and dancing to my favorite tunes. We’ve got a ways to go, I believe, so I’m asking God to keep you safe and sound. In the meantime, thanks for all you do. Thank you for processing critical thoughts. Thank you for digesting everything I slam on your plate. The various mental tabs that open throughout the day. The big ideas. The little details. You do great things because a great God created you. For that, I will always believe that He will take care of us.
December 24, 2020 at 10:32 AM
I believe that He will take care of y’all too. As always, thank you for talking about and sharing the hard things. We don’t talk enough about the hard stuff, those things deemed “taboo” or those unfavorable things that we’ve labeled “negative faith confessions” that are nothing more a reality and an emotion that we must face, call out, deal with, and hold captive and place subjective to and brings under the obedience of God’s word. The talk is not a sin; it’s necessary. You now have and will always have the mind of Christ and His wisdom is now and will forever be formed in you. I bless God for your “abnormal” mind. I think mine recognized yours and was like “OOOOO!!!! YEP!!! UH HUH!!! IT’S ABOUT TO GO DOWN!!” Lol!!! I look forward to continuing to do life with you.
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December 31, 2020 at 2:29 AM
So true and likewise! What good is it to have a faith where you can’t be honest with your God? No way. Not us! Thank you for listening to my heart and totally getting it!